Sunday, February 10, 2008
pantalones.
the only real time i ever had my heart stomped upon was when a guy i loved told me i was no longer the girl he fell in love with. my passion for life and art fizzled as well as his feelings. i buried those thoughts and events far back into my skullbank, but they were recently brought back out. i no longer care about his existence by i do care that his insult still burns. and he's right. it's been a long time since his exit from my life, but i do realize how right he is. my passion for my work is still laying on this plateau of indifference.it's been a shitty beginning of a year but now i'm feeling rejuvenated and as fiery as ever. i'm realizing how lame i've become. starting projects and never following through with them. i can't lean on anyone anymore. i can't blame anyone but myself. i've turned into a flighty character. and i HATE flighty people. it's too early in my life for me to give up/in.
fuck, i used to be so awesome.
i can blame it on the many years i've suffered in customer service, but i won't. i should be taking what i've learned from past shitty jobs and be able to work the system. work the people. charm your overpriced pants off!!!
I'M GOING TO TAKE YOUR PANTS OFF WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!
girlchaos at 9:50 PM